HAYESOMANIA

12 september 2000

dissapointed vegas fans
I don't think i've ever responded to a particular post before this moment.. But i'm afraid i have to defend myself in this occasion. In reference to the post about the vegas fans who claimed i 'yelled at them'... This, simply did not happen. I would urge you or anyone who thinks that i would do this to read my very old post about meeting your idols. And in this particular instance..understand that you simply scared me! What you didn't write in your post is that you were all on the actual floor of our hotel room until all hours of the morning..not just in the lobby... Whether it offends you or not, you have to understand that this is not really cool. It made me and my family (yes i was with my mother and father) feel very uncomfortable. Of course i don't feel like meeting people at 2.30 in the morning in the privacy of my hotel. And we're not talking the lobby here.. We're talking waiting on the actual floor outside our rooms. I was clear about my feelings but i wasn't rude. I just avoided you. The next morning you literally sprung out at me when i jumped out of the elevator. To be honest every single member of the band commented on the experience of having people camping on the actual floor of our hotel. I mean.. You were all on the 34th floor in the lounges watching every single move we made. It's like.. Every single human being needs five minutes to regroup.. Or shut down and just be. I was feeling very introverted and really wanted to be alone so tried to go about my business (on my day off) to meet my family by the pool. I decided that i should turn around and say hello when i saw another 3 people running at me. I remember the comment about the photo album and was about to look at the photos when i got rushed and yes, freaked out. I did not yell. I said, and i quote "i'm really late to see my family..i'm sorry i have to go" and did.

what i don't understand, is... If i write the music.. Perform it for you and give 100%.. Why do you then expect me to be available 24 hours a day? No one can live up to these expectations.

i don't claim to be a hero. Or perfect. But i'm not an asshole and i really object to being publicly slammed. That, really, hurts.
As i said earlier, i don't usually respond to individual posts, but this instance is not how i remember it and as someone who tries very hard to give all i can to my fans i have to defend myself.

thanks to all the people who understand the normality of being a living breathing feeling person and not a machine. I could be all toothy grins and insincere "i love you too's" but that, by definition, would make me plastic.

take care
darren

message to msgiggles etc..vegas misunderstanding..
I wanted to make sure that you know.. And everyone on the board knows.. That i'm completely aware that you had good intentions and that i want you to still be able to enjoy the music and feel part of this community. My post was really to explain my point of view and really to point out that there are indeed always two sides to a story. I know what it's like to look up to someone. The thing is.. If you had still been there on my way back..sincerely...i would have come up to you in my own time and explained. You were not there and i presumed i'd probably run into you later... I did actually think about it alot afterwards and had a deep and meaningful about the whole issue of living of to people's expectations.

i can't believe i'm even engaging a public one on one here.. I do care. I think in general i get too close to my fans and sometimes they expect that it's going to be like this 24/7.

i knew you didn't get what you wanted.. But i assumed you also knew you kinda shocked me.
I didn't have a bodyguard. I didn't have security. I just didn't know what was going to happen.
I'd appreciate it if we could all drop this.. That we could send out happy love vibes to msgiggles (my name for you as i can't type your whole nick..hehe) and that we remember that i'm not a politician. I'm a performer.
And i am a good person. I'm just like you.

with love
darren

debbi...fans .. Me!!
Ok..i can not believe i'm doing this. Hahaha!! This is so pathetic. Here i am responding. Am i hooked? This, seriously...is the last time. I could get hooked on this and i refuse to. And.. Also i honestly believe that there needs to be space between me and you. Generally i don't lurk because i want this to be your world and frankly...in an objective forum..i'm not going to like everything that's written. I could get offended or hurt so like bad reviews i try not to indulge.
So the long and the short of it is... I think i'm not going to make a habit of posting this much..or this personally. Of course i'm going to update and post.. But i'm going to post about my goings on..rather than what goes on here. But since i've started... Here we go!
So..dyan..you sweetheart... I've never read any post that says darren don't read. Honestly. That would be like reading someone's letter. So chill grrrll!
Debbi.. Honestly.. Now i'm putting it all together now.
Yes i got a shirt and a bucket along with daniel's beer etc. Actually i was the one who gave it to him as both ended up in my room. I had no idea it was from the same people who 'heckled me' in the lobby calling me a bsb!! The deal is.. I didn't even think you guys were fans. I thought you were taking the crapolla out of me! The truth is i was embarrassed. So.. Thanks for the shirt..(for the record it's a john lennon imagine one with orignal artwork and it's beautiful..). Please understand guys.. Along with all the things i've explained about my energy... My shyness (yes i actually am off stage) and my emotions.. I'm a dizzy idiot most of the time. I generally don't assume that if you're in a lobby you're here to see me.. (see how embarrassing it can be when you assume.. Superstars and cannonballs doco with me jumping off a plane assuming the media where there to see me.. And they weren't).
Do you know how many times i have people come up to me in hotels and say.."who are you?"....or.."can i get your autograph? I don't know who you are but my friend says you're famous..". So unless it happens spontaneously.. I'm not going to go around hi fiving and slapping every person i see. And yes..sometimes i do have the flu..look like crud and don't feel up to it. I'm rarely 'mad'.. Usually just 'sad' and know i'll dissapoint you if you meet me.
Anyway..it's way too late here.... I'm way too close to this topic and i"m way over responding. It's been an interesting discussion and now i'm off the the land of elusive popstars for a while. Even i'm getting sick of me!
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viva las vegas baby yeah
Here i am in the gambling capital of the world. The devil says hi by the way.
I loved the l.a show. It was possibly the best show we've done so far. Walter a got up on stage and performed 2 beds with me. I loved that show.

i've decided that everytime we do the best shows in our careers they will always get badly reviewed. Honestly... It's actually making me laugh now because it's our in joke.. We do a show that everyone agrees is fantastic... And i say "you watch..we'll get a bad review"... And we do!! Hahaha.

well..honestly... I'm crying all the way to my bank account. A sold out arena full of screaming fans obviously means the show sucks!!

please don't get too defensive for us. I love it when you do.. But generally i just ignore it now.
I've decided that all of my idols had years of bad reviews..(some still get them) and it didn't stop them.
What i think is incredible is that someone can dismiss a. My singing ability (oh yeah he sang great..but i didn't like the stage..) And b. The genre (it's pop people..!!) And then c. Get all the details wrong. Erhem!

i'm glad you're all adjusted to my new hair now. Gosh.. That was dramatic wasn't it?
Europe..lovely europe.. Ok.. Dates are coming soon.. But i can tell you that there are dates in england, ireland, sweden, italy, france yes!! We're playing in paris!! Actually the tour begins in paris.. (hello sam!!) And 3 dates in south africa. There are also 3 dates in mexico!! This is roughly scheduled in november through december so stay tuned for details.
I want to thank all of our north american fans for such an incredible ride.. You have made us feel so special and welcome and we love you. Ditto for australia and japan. Now on to the rest of the world!

take care
with love
darren